So, how's my training going?

In just a few weeks, I'm running in the Dallas Half Marathon. I started training for this over six months before race day. You would think I would be in amazing shape and totally ready. Well....

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There was a time when my training was going well. I had worked up to running 20-25 minutes without stopping for my short runs, and was just starting my "long" runs at 4 miles. For these I was running 3/walking 2. Then for some reason, it got harder.

The short runs got harder. I wasn't adding any speed or distance, but found I couldn't run as long. I went down to 5 minute increments. Too long. 3 minute. I'm now at 2 minutes running/1 minute walking. My long runs are going worse. I start out running 3/walking 2, then I skip a few of the running intervals, then I just do what I can to finish. A week ago Sunday I did 6 miles. I ended up running 90 seconds/walking 90 seconds for the final 2 miles. I was supposed to run 7 last weekend but wasn't able to due to childcare issues. I tried to run it at work at lunch on Monday and made it 4.5 miles.

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I'm signed up for an 8 mile race on Thanksgiving. Theoretically, I should do a 10 mile run the week before the race, and be able to make it 13.1 miles due to sheer adrenaline or something. But I'm nervous. I'm disappointed. And I can't get my eating under control.

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6 months ago when I decided to do this, I thought surely I would have finally lost those 20 extra pounds I've been carrying around. Well, I'm exactly the same as I was 6 months ago, and that's primarily because I can't control my eating.

Me at night. (source)

I'm close to giving up on ever losing weight and just exercising because I like it. Except I don't like it right now. But you know what, my makeup looks great. Maybe I should just focus on that...

Three Things Friday

Hooray, It's FRIDAY! What's your weekend ahead look like?

1. Working out with my daughter.
When I was pregnant with my now 4 year old daughter, I worked out the whole time.

There she is, in my belly.

I did a lot of Turbokick and Turbofire (which had just come out). I remember thinking "One day, this little girl is going to be big enough to workout with me. Well, this was yesterday:

It finally happened. She's now my workout buddy. I got a little emotional.

2. 21 Day Fix is.. extreme. These workouts are really tough. I have to confess, though, I didn't love Pilates Fix Extreme (even though my daughter did it with me). It was the least fun I think I've had working out in a while. So I'm considering subbing Piyo for it the next time it comes around....

More fun than Pilates Fix Extreme

3. Remember how I'm working on that doctorate?

I really am still working on a doctorate. I'm taking two classes this semester. But, in a rare case of me actually knowing and accepting my limits, I've decided to drop one of my classes. I'm feeling a mixture of total relief, and deep anxiety (how can you feel those both at the same time? I'm not sure...) If you've ever dropped a class, can you let me know how you felt? Did you regret it? Or were you happy you did it? In my case, I just don't think my heart is in it, and I've let myself get so behind that I don't think I can catch up.

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I hope your weekend is filled with the opposite of anxiety, and that you have a lovely Easter.

Three Thing Friday

Hooray! It's Friday!

Not the best quality of that video, but who cares? The song says it all anyway...

Here are some things to think about today:

1. Don't blow all your hard work this weekend.

I'm so guilty of this. On the weekends I get lazy when it comes to nutrition. I feel like kicking back and celebrating, so I eat or drink some things I shouldn't. Don't let this be you! I'm committing to staying strong this weekend and I hope you are too!

Don't eat this, for example. (Source)

2. I really want to see Cinderella

Last weekend, I was going to take my four year old daughter to see Cinderella. I had a perfect Mommy-daughter day planned. We were going to go after church. Well, after church, she announced that she didn't want to go to the movies. Instead she wanted to stay home and play Minecraft with her brother (I don't understand that game...). Of course, about 3 hours later she started crying because she wanted to see the movie....

3. My hair is driving me crazy

I'm so tempted to do something crazy with it. Lately, I've seen girls getting these haircuts where they shave the side of their head. I did that in junior high and got grounded for it. But now it's cool again. At first I thought it was ridiculous, but the idea has grown on me and I'm tempted to play with the clippers..... thoughts?

Those are my issues today. How about you? 

Have a great weekend!